Hello every one

First of all sorry if my question seems to be quite irrelevant to this community

Because most of you working on data world, and my enthusiasm for some time was data sciences, thus I want to share my story here with you with honesty as there is no point to modify any fact

My main purpose is to know what you think, maybe as a cease of my pain, I really don't know...

I have already asked this in another forum, but I believe that people in this forum almost come from data sciences background or interests so knowing what different people think for me worth to ask this again

In September 2016 I saw a PhD advertisement in a forum. I emailed the advertiser and he sent me a half-baked draft of a research project and told me that if I want this position I would need a first-author publication and therefore I should make that draft publishable. I did that and sent the draft back to him.

After some time I asked him about the paper and he told he has submitted that and we will hear from the journal soon, but he did not give me any confirmation email from any journal. After few months he asked me to do the same analysis on another topic but this time from the scratch.

I started research on that topic when I was waiting for the journal he mentioned to inform us. One night, in Skype he asked me to send him some of my personal pictures. First I thought he might just be curious but he started a nasty conversation about my marital status etc. I felt that something was going wrong and I told him that I don’t want to carry on that collaboration. I therefore stopped research on the second topic and asked him about the status of the submitted paper few days later; he replied that he didn’t want to publish that with me anymore.

I was just shocked by his reaction and got too upset feeling being badly abused. I then submitted the draft to a journal in 2017 without mentioning his name, but he asked for retraction. I sent all of conversation via Skype and Teamviewer to the editor and him. The editor told me I should disclose this with his university, but that the journal could not help and has to retract the paper. The paper has been fully retracted in November 2019. The retraction note of the journal says:

The paper is based on an unpublished work by ... in the note journal mentions that I disagreed with this retraction

At those moments I was too terrified such a bad that my mind was not working at all, I did not know what should I do to stop the journal until I received the retraction note very shortly

Now, after few months, when I have covered myself a bit I just live in a nightmare. I am too disappointed this much that I don't have any energy to do anything because I know no one would hire me. I think people would not listen to my story and they judge based the retraction note. What is too painful is that: I have studied for years and obtained a PhD degree and the worst that I am a girl with disability who can not perform most of physical tasks

I am not say these to justifying myself, I am only going to disclose what has happened to me and how I feel

Does this retraction note imply that I committed some academic misconduct? How can I handle it in future academic applications.**

What would you do if you were in my situation?

Sorry for this wordiness